I love Taiwan and I love all my newly made friends here...
But I miss my friends in the US. And it's especially hard when some of these friends can't be reached online. I miss my lunch and dinner dates. I miss having my own personal space [though my roommate here isn't bad at all]. I miss talking to certain people. I miss the drives. I miss the hugs. As much as I don't like Berkeley there's something that I have there that I seem to be missing here. Can't really say exactly what it is. But I guess it's knowing that no matter what, I know that there's someone I can depend on if I ever need to talk, need a hug, need some comfort. That is what I'm missing here. Someone I can turn to when in need. I will not be able to make a future here in Taiwan until I can find that someone. Which is also half the reason why I would not want to extend my stay here to a year so thank goodness my scheduling dilemma has been fixed.
Tomorrow is Halloween. And people here want to just dress up and go clubbing all weekend long. I'm not participating because that is not what I want to do. If I was in the US, I'd be celebrating Halloween dressed up as some Pokemon trainer playing with the kids in OASES. Then at night I'd probably be going over to someone's apartment for a movie or a party. My living style does not seem to match up with the party style of people here. Which only makes me miss US kiddos even more.
Grace, Jackie, Nathan, Yuan, Wenqi, Yen, Lawrence, Julie, Sally, Jimmy, etc etc etc..don't know if you all read this but I miss you!!!!
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Challenge
So I have to memorize almost 50 chinese idioms for my midterm. As a way to practice, let's see how many I can use in this entry. Ready...set...go!
人生難免會有大起大落。大起，可以像是找到難能可貴的稀世奇珍的興奮，或者自己白手起家獨當一面地完成自己的夢想的快樂；大落呢，有可能是發現自己男朋友風流程性，還金屋藏嬌，或者做生意節節失利，都是些會讓心裡隱隱作痛的事。不過，無風不起浪，而失敗也為成功之母，不管人生落到什麼地步，一定要另起爐灶，從新開始，不能抱頭鼠竄，不然就無功不受祿。
我呢，不是什麼可造之才，也不是個多才多藝的人，可是這麼普普通通的人也是會有大起大落的人生ㄛ！通常人生的落點都是自己自找苦吃。我的落點就是太會相信別人，碰到信口開河的人還不知道，要等到他們過河拆橋我才知道誤上賊船了。我也蠻會照顧別人，會費經心機地幫助別人。看到朋友有需要什麼就會拱手讓人。這可以算是優點，但反過來說，也可以是缺點，因為我只懂得照顧別人，而不懂得照顧自己。人善被人欺，馬善被人騎。我的好朋友常為我打抱不平，說該學著說ＮＯ不然會站不住腳，被人佔便宜。我沒聽，以為他們杞人憂天，覺得自己做好事就好了，被佔便宜難免會發生一兩次，不會對自己有什麼影響。但我錯了。大一時就沒頭沒腦地真的誤上賊船，而且是個很大的船，然我整個人碰到個莫大的低潮，從此使我對男性處處曹操，把他們看成不懷好意和言不由衷的人。
時間一閃即逝，我現在也已經大四了，快要畢業，但個性一點也沒變。這兩年中也發生了很多事。我呢，在福不知福，天賜不取，必有後禍，不懂得把我好機會，而讓機會擦生而過。可是這次來台灣讀書讓我大開眼界了，終於開始了解自己照顧自己的重要性。人家說吃一次虧，學一次乖，可是我是吃好幾次虧才終於開始明白了。
ICLP每一堂課很小，大約會有５－６個人。因為人數很少，而且大部分的同學是女生，上課時間還會聊一些關於人生和感情的事。聽到大家聊到未來的終身大事也讓我耳目一新，因為我從來沒想過結婚的事，也沒想過未來的老公（如果真的結婚的話）需要什麼條件。老師說，愛情是踏破鐵鞋無覓處，得來全不費功夫，你越想要就越找不到，反而，沒有在想的時就會找到。我覺得老師說的有道理，不要為了節節失利而忘了為自己著想。現在最重要的是埋頭苦幹地把書讀好，開始想想我未來的生活要怎麼過。要先把自己照顧好才能照顧好別人。
好了～我已經黔驢技窮了，那就點到為止。感覺上像寫了一篇文章似的。希望寫的不是一塌糊塗的胡言亂語。
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Okay, I managed to use around 40 Chinese idioms and sayings. Can you find them all? xP [Don't actually know if this whole thing is grammatically correct, but hey, it took me nearly 3 hours to write!!)
人生難免會有大起大落。大起，可以像是找到難能可貴的稀世奇珍的興奮，或者自己白手起家獨當一面地完成自己的夢想的快樂；大落呢，有可能是發現自己男朋友風流程性，還金屋藏嬌，或者做生意節節失利，都是些會讓心裡隱隱作痛的事。不過，無風不起浪，而失敗也為成功之母，不管人生落到什麼地步，一定要另起爐灶，從新開始，不能抱頭鼠竄，不然就無功不受祿。
我呢，不是什麼可造之才，也不是個多才多藝的人，可是這麼普普通通的人也是會有大起大落的人生ㄛ！通常人生的落點都是自己自找苦吃。我的落點就是太會相信別人，碰到信口開河的人還不知道，要等到他們過河拆橋我才知道誤上賊船了。我也蠻會照顧別人，會費經心機地幫助別人。看到朋友有需要什麼就會拱手讓人。這可以算是優點，但反過來說，也可以是缺點，因為我只懂得照顧別人，而不懂得照顧自己。人善被人欺，馬善被人騎。我的好朋友常為我打抱不平，說該學著說ＮＯ不然會站不住腳，被人佔便宜。我沒聽，以為他們杞人憂天，覺得自己做好事就好了，被佔便宜難免會發生一兩次，不會對自己有什麼影響。但我錯了。大一時就沒頭沒腦地真的誤上賊船，而且是個很大的船，然我整個人碰到個莫大的低潮，從此使我對男性處處曹操，把他們看成不懷好意和言不由衷的人。
時間一閃即逝，我現在也已經大四了，快要畢業，但個性一點也沒變。這兩年中也發生了很多事。我呢，在福不知福，天賜不取，必有後禍，不懂得把我好機會，而讓機會擦生而過。可是這次來台灣讀書讓我大開眼界了，終於開始了解自己照顧自己的重要性。人家說吃一次虧，學一次乖，可是我是吃好幾次虧才終於開始明白了。
ICLP每一堂課很小，大約會有５－６個人。因為人數很少，而且大部分的同學是女生，上課時間還會聊一些關於人生和感情的事。聽到大家聊到未來的終身大事也讓我耳目一新，因為我從來沒想過結婚的事，也沒想過未來的老公（如果真的結婚的話）需要什麼條件。老師說，愛情是踏破鐵鞋無覓處，得來全不費功夫，你越想要就越找不到，反而，沒有在想的時就會找到。我覺得老師說的有道理，不要為了節節失利而忘了為自己著想。現在最重要的是埋頭苦幹地把書讀好，開始想想我未來的生活要怎麼過。要先把自己照顧好才能照顧好別人。
好了～我已經黔驢技窮了，那就點到為止。感覺上像寫了一篇文章似的。希望寫的不是一塌糊塗的胡言亂語。
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Okay, I managed to use around 40 Chinese idioms and sayings. Can you find them all? xP [Don't actually know if this whole thing is grammatically correct, but hey, it took me nearly 3 hours to write!!)
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Taiwanese vs Me
Taiwanese habits vs my (possibly American) habits that I've noticed.
Cell Phones
TAIWANESE. lives depend on their cell phone or something. A phone is never on silent. And they pick up their cell phones no matter where they are. Students pick up their cell phones in class and either whisper their conversation or simply leave the classroom to talk. My friend told me that his professor even stopped mid-lecture to pick up his cell phone. I remember two years ago I went to watch a movie with a friend and his cell phone rang during the movie and he picked it up too. Granted the theater was big and no one was sitting around us but still. What's up with that?
ME/AMERICANS. silent their phones when they are doing something that shouldn't be interrupted. We silent our phones for class, dates, meetings, etc. And if our phone does happen to ring or we happen to forget to silent our phones, we apologize profusely, look super embarrassed, and immediately stop the call and either turn off our phones or silent them. It's our way to respect those around us so that we don't cause a distraction.
I silent my phone for class, movies, club meetings, etc. Wonder if that's a bad thing for here because people here also don't leave messages. So if I receive a phone call from an unknown person (which I did yesterday) while my phone is silent I won't know who called me.
Walking Speed
TAIWANESE. walk soooooooooooooooo slow. and not only that, they all like walking in the middle of the path so it's not like fast walkers can even like pass them.
I. walk super fast. I've always been a fast walker since I walk pretty much everywhere (to school, to class, for food) in the US. Do you know how frustrating it is to walk behind a super slow person? I don't know how to walk slow! LoL. When Dan and I went on our club outing we like lost the other club members because we walked waaaaay too fast. Haha.
Personal Space
TAIWANESE. the concept of personal space does not exist. People squeeze and push and everything to get what they want. Yet they have a problem with physical contact. Doesn't really make sense.
ME. after coming to Taiwan some much and interning here [hence taking public transportation during rush hour], I have become used to this. Basically, if you shove me, I will shove you right back. xP
Cell Phones
TAIWANESE. lives depend on their cell phone or something. A phone is never on silent. And they pick up their cell phones no matter where they are. Students pick up their cell phones in class and either whisper their conversation or simply leave the classroom to talk. My friend told me that his professor even stopped mid-lecture to pick up his cell phone. I remember two years ago I went to watch a movie with a friend and his cell phone rang during the movie and he picked it up too. Granted the theater was big and no one was sitting around us but still. What's up with that?
ME/AMERICANS. silent their phones when they are doing something that shouldn't be interrupted. We silent our phones for class, dates, meetings, etc. And if our phone does happen to ring or we happen to forget to silent our phones, we apologize profusely, look super embarrassed, and immediately stop the call and either turn off our phones or silent them. It's our way to respect those around us so that we don't cause a distraction.
I silent my phone for class, movies, club meetings, etc. Wonder if that's a bad thing for here because people here also don't leave messages. So if I receive a phone call from an unknown person (which I did yesterday) while my phone is silent I won't know who called me.
Walking Speed
TAIWANESE. walk soooooooooooooooo slow. and not only that, they all like walking in the middle of the path so it's not like fast walkers can even like pass them.
I. walk super fast. I've always been a fast walker since I walk pretty much everywhere (to school, to class, for food) in the US. Do you know how frustrating it is to walk behind a super slow person? I don't know how to walk slow! LoL. When Dan and I went on our club outing we like lost the other club members because we walked waaaaay too fast. Haha.
Personal Space
TAIWANESE. the concept of personal space does not exist. People squeeze and push and everything to get what they want. Yet they have a problem with physical contact. Doesn't really make sense.
ME. after coming to Taiwan some much and interning here [hence taking public transportation during rush hour], I have become used to this. Basically, if you shove me, I will shove you right back. xP
Sunday, October 26, 2008
One Day Break
So I am back from my grandma's. It was a nice break. Got some studying done, had some yummy home-cooked food, and just talked to my grandma about...stuff. I even finished writing my postcards! Go me.
Anyways...I feel more relaxed now, I think I know what to do about kenting now. I like how my family has always been able to trust me with traveling. Like I told my grandma that I'm going to kenting and hong kong in november and she wasn't against it at all. Same with the rest of my family.
不過這次回板橋又讓我面對過去的事. 我想來想去...I really did make a big mistake. 這個mistake也可能沒辦法彌補, 除非另一邊也想再試一次. 現在也不知道要怎麼辦...do i let it go? Or do I bring it up again? As my grandma likes to call him...我跟這位小男生要怎麼辦?
旁觀者清，當局者迷。Maybe someone will be able to tell me what I should do...@@
But for now...off to 社遊!! A recording studio! I can't wait!
Anyways...I feel more relaxed now, I think I know what to do about kenting now. I like how my family has always been able to trust me with traveling. Like I told my grandma that I'm going to kenting and hong kong in november and she wasn't against it at all. Same with the rest of my family.
不過這次回板橋又讓我面對過去的事. 我想來想去...I really did make a big mistake. 這個mistake也可能沒辦法彌補, 除非另一邊也想再試一次. 現在也不知道要怎麼辦...do i let it go? Or do I bring it up again? As my grandma likes to call him...我跟這位小男生要怎麼辦?
旁觀者清，當局者迷。Maybe someone will be able to tell me what I should do...@@
But for now...off to 社遊!! A recording studio! I can't wait!
Friday, October 24, 2008
Stressed!!
So I'm trying to plan a group trip down to 墾丁 for a weekend. Emphasis on the TRYING part because it is proving to be more difficult that I imagined. I mean...at first I thought we should be going down to 屏東 because it's closest to 墾丁. But then after surfing the web I see that everyone says to travel from 高雄. Which kind of makes things hard since I wanted to stop by 屏東 and see some friends while I was at it. Will have to figure that part out later.
And then everyone has different schedules, though as of now it's really only two schedules that are really conflicting each other, mine and someone else's. And that is also giving me a headache. But it's probably just going to result in me sucking it up and try to do something about the tutoring job that I haven't even started yet @@
But the biggest headache right now is finding a place to live. There's so many choices. And there's so many websites. And they are all in chinese. Me + tons of chinese = major headache [unless they are people's blogs because I like reading those]. GAAAAAH. Don't even know how payment for living will go since I don't exactly have a taiwan visa.
To make things better...midterms next week! LoL. Well, I'll be at my grandma's for half the weekend which means no computer and internet so I'll be able to study and not think about 墾丁. Of course that also means there's a tv to watch. Hm.....xP
And then everyone has different schedules, though as of now it's really only two schedules that are really conflicting each other, mine and someone else's. And that is also giving me a headache. But it's probably just going to result in me sucking it up and try to do something about the tutoring job that I haven't even started yet @@
But the biggest headache right now is finding a place to live. There's so many choices. And there's so many websites. And they are all in chinese. Me + tons of chinese = major headache [unless they are people's blogs because I like reading those]. GAAAAAH. Don't even know how payment for living will go since I don't exactly have a taiwan visa.
To make things better...midterms next week! LoL. Well, I'll be at my grandma's for half the weekend which means no computer and internet so I'll be able to study and not think about 墾丁. Of course that also means there's a tv to watch. Hm.....xP
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Clubs
So it's been 1.5 months now. I've scrolled through my past entries and realized that I haven't really talked about the clubs that I'm in or sort of in. So here we go...
Songwriter's Club (歌曲創作社)
Yep...I'm not exactly sure why I'm in this. But it's actually like the only club so far that I've been consistently going to. I guess I was interested in song writing due to the influences of watching 星光大道 and of course the awesome songs of awesome singers. Plus my friend Dan was interested too and so we checked it out together. They have classes every week about writing songs. I don't really do much in the class because I mean..me...come up with chinese lyrics? In your dreams. But the people are nice and they always ask me if I understand what's going on. The club president always sits close by to me and Dan I suppose to answer any questions if we have them. We have a club outing this sunday to KTV and a recording studio. Kind of excited about that. I'd like to see a recording studio!
Singing Club? (台大樂社)
So I didn't go to this club's info session and have only gone to one meeting so far because they never emailed me their information and I didn't know how to use ptt at that time so couldn't look it up myself. Not quite sure what they do but apparently once every two weeks a teacher comes and teaches you how to sing a chinese song. And the weeks in between, the club board members teach about different genres of music. The first time I went I sat and listened to them talk about rock and roll for almost 2 hours. It was insanely boring. But I guess I have to see what the teaching sessions are like to decide if I want to officially join.
And that's pretty much the two clubs that I'm still keeping tabs on. I guess I will officially join the songwriter's club just for the heck of it. We'll see about the singing one...
Songwriter's Club (歌曲創作社)
Yep...I'm not exactly sure why I'm in this. But it's actually like the only club so far that I've been consistently going to. I guess I was interested in song writing due to the influences of watching 星光大道 and of course the awesome songs of awesome singers. Plus my friend Dan was interested too and so we checked it out together. They have classes every week about writing songs. I don't really do much in the class because I mean..me...come up with chinese lyrics? In your dreams. But the people are nice and they always ask me if I understand what's going on. The club president always sits close by to me and Dan I suppose to answer any questions if we have them. We have a club outing this sunday to KTV and a recording studio. Kind of excited about that. I'd like to see a recording studio!
Singing Club? (台大樂社)
So I didn't go to this club's info session and have only gone to one meeting so far because they never emailed me their information and I didn't know how to use ptt at that time so couldn't look it up myself. Not quite sure what they do but apparently once every two weeks a teacher comes and teaches you how to sing a chinese song. And the weeks in between, the club board members teach about different genres of music. The first time I went I sat and listened to them talk about rock and roll for almost 2 hours. It was insanely boring. But I guess I have to see what the teaching sessions are like to decide if I want to officially join.
And that's pretty much the two clubs that I'm still keeping tabs on. I guess I will officially join the songwriter's club just for the heck of it. We'll see about the singing one...
Sunday, October 19, 2008
Another Weekend Summary
This weekend has once again been busy. Saturday was the EAP arranged day trip to 宜蘭.
(the two pictures my camera managed to take before it started malfunctioning again)
Recognize these pics? Came here with TTT two years ago. It's still the same old place. Wasn't as crowded and 熱鬧 as two years ago but yea. Walking around brought back some funny memories especially since I was looking at those pictures before this day trip. Watched some performances and painted our own 布袋戲 puppets.
On the way back, we stopped at some place for an ocean view. Below are pictures from my cellphone.
Then I had dinner with Danny at Momo Paradise. 400some NT for around 5 plates of vegetables and 6 plates of meat. Expensive but delicious and well worth-it. We were so bloated after. But sooo goood.
Today I went to go "interview" for a tutoring job. Basically showed up, chatted with the parents, smoothed out some details and that was that. So now I have a tutoring job! Twice a week, two hours each time, and 400NT/hour. So I get 1600NT/week. The only crazy thing is this kid is in 3rd grade. Except he's TALLER or almost as tall as me. WTF!!! Crazy stuff I know. And the parents keep referring to me as 老師 which I find weird. But I guess I might as well get used to since that is the path I plan on taking.
Then after went to 五分埔 AGAIN with lil sherry. Shopped around a bit. Bought a dress and a shirt. And then back to the dorms for dinner.
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Now that things have settled down everywhere (school stuff, Berkeley stuff, life stuff) I can start focusing on enjoying life here again. =)
(the two pictures my camera managed to take before it started malfunctioning again)
Recognize these pics? Came here with TTT two years ago. It's still the same old place. Wasn't as crowded and 熱鬧 as two years ago but yea. Walking around brought back some funny memories especially since I was looking at those pictures before this day trip. Watched some performances and painted our own 布袋戲 puppets.
On the way back, we stopped at some place for an ocean view. Below are pictures from my cellphone.
Then I had dinner with Danny at Momo Paradise. 400some NT for around 5 plates of vegetables and 6 plates of meat. Expensive but delicious and well worth-it. We were so bloated after. But sooo goood.
Today I went to go "interview" for a tutoring job. Basically showed up, chatted with the parents, smoothed out some details and that was that. So now I have a tutoring job! Twice a week, two hours each time, and 400NT/hour. So I get 1600NT/week. The only crazy thing is this kid is in 3rd grade. Except he's TALLER or almost as tall as me. WTF!!! Crazy stuff I know. And the parents keep referring to me as 老師 which I find weird. But I guess I might as well get used to since that is the path I plan on taking.
Then after went to 五分埔 AGAIN with lil sherry. Shopped around a bit. Bought a dress and a shirt. And then back to the dorms for dinner.
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Now that things have settled down everywhere (school stuff, Berkeley stuff, life stuff) I can start focusing on enjoying life here again. =)
Friday, October 17, 2008
The Long Weekend
So I just realized that I never actually talked about the long weekend due to everything else that was happening at that time.
First of all, a friend of mine who I haven't seen in two years came up to Taipei for the weekend and joined in on our adventures.
Friday (10/10) 淡水
Happy Birthday to my brother! And happy birthday to Taiwan too! Went to 淡水 with friends. There were so many kids on the MRT to 淡水 is was so adorable! Apparently there was some sort of event happening there hence the massive crowd of kids. Anyways...wandered around 老街 for a bit with the friends. And it started pouring. I had originally bought an umbrella in the dorm convenience store but it turned out to be a defective umbrella [waste of 100NT -_-||] so had to buy another one. Man I have such bad luck with umbrellas...they hate me. Anyways...after wandering with them for a bit I left and went off to visit my grandparents. And that was that.
Saturday (10/11) 九份
So when I was polling my friends about where to go [yes i'm back to planning events] 九份 got the most votes. So we headed there. I've never been there before [at least I don't think so] but an hour bus ride turned into like a 1.5-2 hour bus ride. And the place itself was crazy crowded that it was near impossible to stay together as a whole group [we had a total of 12 people]. Just imagine, a super thin alley with a bajillion people in it trying to go opposite directions. We had to split our group into two for lunch because all the stores there were tiny and definitely wouldn't have space for 12 people at once. And the weather wasn't spectacular there so the view wasn't exactly that great either.
But the craziest part was coming back...now that was an adventure! So today was also Janice's birthday and she wanted to go clubbing for her birthday so some of the people wanted to go back to Taipei earlier and nap so they can prep for the night outing. So they split from us. Except the line for the bus ride back to Taipei was RIDICULOUS. Basically when we were done exploring and were ready to head back, they were STILL IN LINE. They probably waited like almost 2 hours for that bus! Well we decided that we didn't want to wait in line anymore so took a taxi to a train station and took the train back to Taipei. Except there were no more seats on the train so we had to stand the whole way back. The funniest part was that half our group got on the bus at the same time the other half took the taxis, and we both arrived in Taipei around the same time (around 8:40-9pmish).
It was quite an experience. I felt pretty bad about the whole thing because I never expected there to be such a huge line for the bus since we didn't experience that on the way there. And it was pretty windy up there so I came back to Taipei with a headache and ended up not going clubbing with everyone else.
Sunday (10/12)
Basically spent it recovering from the outings.
Yep...really boring and basic summary of the weekend. Unfortunately I have no pictures to show since my camera decided to start malfunctioning and now I can't take pictures without them showing up white or yellow. Such sadness. I must figure out something for this camera problem because abroad with no camera? That's no good...-_-||
First of all, a friend of mine who I haven't seen in two years came up to Taipei for the weekend and joined in on our adventures.
Friday (10/10) 淡水
Happy Birthday to my brother! And happy birthday to Taiwan too! Went to 淡水 with friends. There were so many kids on the MRT to 淡水 is was so adorable! Apparently there was some sort of event happening there hence the massive crowd of kids. Anyways...wandered around 老街 for a bit with the friends. And it started pouring. I had originally bought an umbrella in the dorm convenience store but it turned out to be a defective umbrella [waste of 100NT -_-||] so had to buy another one. Man I have such bad luck with umbrellas...they hate me. Anyways...after wandering with them for a bit I left and went off to visit my grandparents. And that was that.
Saturday (10/11) 九份
So when I was polling my friends about where to go [yes i'm back to planning events] 九份 got the most votes. So we headed there. I've never been there before [at least I don't think so] but an hour bus ride turned into like a 1.5-2 hour bus ride. And the place itself was crazy crowded that it was near impossible to stay together as a whole group [we had a total of 12 people]. Just imagine, a super thin alley with a bajillion people in it trying to go opposite directions. We had to split our group into two for lunch because all the stores there were tiny and definitely wouldn't have space for 12 people at once. And the weather wasn't spectacular there so the view wasn't exactly that great either.
But the craziest part was coming back...now that was an adventure! So today was also Janice's birthday and she wanted to go clubbing for her birthday so some of the people wanted to go back to Taipei earlier and nap so they can prep for the night outing. So they split from us. Except the line for the bus ride back to Taipei was RIDICULOUS. Basically when we were done exploring and were ready to head back, they were STILL IN LINE. They probably waited like almost 2 hours for that bus! Well we decided that we didn't want to wait in line anymore so took a taxi to a train station and took the train back to Taipei. Except there were no more seats on the train so we had to stand the whole way back. The funniest part was that half our group got on the bus at the same time the other half took the taxis, and we both arrived in Taipei around the same time (around 8:40-9pmish).
It was quite an experience. I felt pretty bad about the whole thing because I never expected there to be such a huge line for the bus since we didn't experience that on the way there. And it was pretty windy up there so I came back to Taipei with a headache and ended up not going clubbing with everyone else.
Sunday (10/12)
Basically spent it recovering from the outings.
Yep...really boring and basic summary of the weekend. Unfortunately I have no pictures to show since my camera decided to start malfunctioning and now I can't take pictures without them showing up white or yellow. Such sadness. I must figure out something for this camera problem because abroad with no camera? That's no good...-_-||
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
The End.
Today at 3am marked the end of another chapter of my life. It's strange how at peace I feel about it all. 雖然真得很捨不得...不過這個決定終於能讓我把這兩年背得負擔給擺脫掉. 沒有壓力了, 也輕鬆多了.
不知道你有沒有看這個...不過這首歌送給你 (xanga上的歌也是).
Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
===
這個結果是來自我沒好好把握機會, 讓好的機會擦身而過. It's time for a change. Time to learn from my mistakes. again.
不知道你有沒有看這個...不過這首歌送給你 (xanga上的歌也是).
Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
===
這個結果是來自我沒好好把握機會, 讓好的機會擦身而過. It's time for a change. Time to learn from my mistakes. again.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Bits & Pieces
**My past is coming back to visit me. Two years ago...I don't really know what to think or expect. It's interesting how I spend so much effort trying to keep the past alive, trying to hold onto it by making an effort to keep in touch with people....yet I end up failing and getting hurt. And the one that I didn't spend any effort on is still here and coming to visit. Life sure is funny.
**So earlier today I was thinking that I have been slacking in schoolwork and not really making an effort to learn because I was unhappy with my course situation. But I recently have come to accept this situation and was telling myself that I need to start working harder. And then I get an email from the Chinese minor advisor telling me that they don't transfer credit for language EAP courses. Well...now what do I think? Like my friend says...I'm pretty much here for nothing. Not that I wasn't expecting it...after all I have a semester free and chose to spend it here. Of course I wasn't planning on spending my free semester taking intensive chinese courses which I can't get credit for even though they are pretty much the same as taking Chinese courses in Berkeley. Hopefully my petition with the education department gets approved. Then I'll at least be here for something. *crosses fingers*
**I still haven't really made any local friends yet. I've talked to some at the club meetings that I went to during the first week. But I haven't really gone to a club meeting since. I feel bad and I'm a little mad at myself about it. I did come here to meet some more locals. Yet I'm not actually doing it. Have to start making more of an effort to go to these club meetings. There is one club that has been reaching out to me by making phone calls...however I haven't attended their meetings because it conflicts with another club that I want to join. Gosh I'm so conflicted. @@
**Long weekend coming up. I planned the whole weekend out for us. It should be fun I hope.
**So earlier today I was thinking that I have been slacking in schoolwork and not really making an effort to learn because I was unhappy with my course situation. But I recently have come to accept this situation and was telling myself that I need to start working harder. And then I get an email from the Chinese minor advisor telling me that they don't transfer credit for language EAP courses. Well...now what do I think? Like my friend says...I'm pretty much here for nothing. Not that I wasn't expecting it...after all I have a semester free and chose to spend it here. Of course I wasn't planning on spending my free semester taking intensive chinese courses which I can't get credit for even though they are pretty much the same as taking Chinese courses in Berkeley. Hopefully my petition with the education department gets approved. Then I'll at least be here for something. *crosses fingers*
**I still haven't really made any local friends yet. I've talked to some at the club meetings that I went to during the first week. But I haven't really gone to a club meeting since. I feel bad and I'm a little mad at myself about it. I did come here to meet some more locals. Yet I'm not actually doing it. Have to start making more of an effort to go to these club meetings. There is one club that has been reaching out to me by making phone calls...however I haven't attended their meetings because it conflicts with another club that I want to join. Gosh I'm so conflicted. @@
**Long weekend coming up. I planned the whole weekend out for us. It should be fun I hope.
Sunday, October 5, 2008
The Good and the Bad
The Good
- no typhoon this weekend = being able to go out
- not getting lost when going to that 牛肉麵 place near 西門町
- getting S.H.E.'s autograph
- good communication with the education minor advisor...possibility of using my current NTU course for my education minor which would complete the minor for me
- KTVing 4 hours with 1 hour free
- finally getting a usb cable for my external! i can now use my external again!
- getting myself a pair of 環保筷 even though i didn't get them at 五份埔. maybe i'll go tomorrow. can never have enough 環保筷! xD
- i finally bought 卓義峰's cd! and i <3 it!
- spent 5 hours waiting just to get the autographs
- half the weekend is over...and it was mostly spent standing in a line with two loud and obnoxious high school boys who would swear and talk about really weird topics behind us
- Berkeley suffering from budget cuts...there's like such a limited selection of classes for me to take next semester! I'm thinking it might even be better to just extend my EAP to a year and finish all my requirements here. @@
- our KTV room was smokey. ew.
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